Someone once told me I was the most self aware person they knew. And they knew a lot of people. I don't know if that's a blessing or a curse honestly. But I do know I feel anxious most days. To the point where I notice the days I feel ok more than I notice the days I feel bad. That's just my normal.
However, last week I had a full on panic attack for the first time in almost a year. Oddly enough it was a year to the day exactly that those life changing decisions you may have read about were made. Did my subconscious remember that whirlwind of a day? Possibly. But I can tell you this, I felt that shit for like 3 days.
And when you have a panic attack that feels never ending what do you do? No, seriously... what do you do? Because I could not shake the feeling of my chest caving in all weekend.
Do you throw some coconut oil in your hair and put on a sheet mask?
Do you go for a walk?
Or maybe a stiff drink?
Eat a pizza on the couch?
Words weren't working for me. I couldn't say it, I couldn't write it, I couldn't even think through it.
So do you fake it till you make it? Make it through the shit storm.
With some bitchin' heels and a red lip?
Do you listen to Kesha or do you turn on Adele?
Ice cream, perhaps? After a long nap, of course.
Do you get yourself a custom denim jacket on your lunch break? (felt good, I swear)
How about read your horoscope on three different websites?
Anyone shake that magic 8 ball in hopes of seeing what they want someone else to tell them?
Crying is a given but then what?
I'm honestly curious how you handle those days. Cause they kinda suck and sometimes the above doesn't cut it.
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